Goodbye… The word that hurt us once when my Lola Celing left us.. Word that we never expect to be said again in a short period of time. January 2, 2011 was the date when my Grandma left us. And now just after three months my Grandpa, Our Grandpa, Her Husband left us. March 13, 2011 when he left us.
He left us, on a situation very opposite with my Grandma’s dying day. My Grandfather died in the hospital emergency room, only with few of his family, his just with my mother, Inaylo, Mama Baby, Ninong Nestor, Lorenze, Liard, Ate Jaqc and maybe with my Papa Enang.
Midnight of March 13, 2011 I was asleep beside Giuseppe, when my parent woke me up to say that they will be leaving because Lolo was brought to the hospital. I just replied and said “ok po ingat”, then after few minutes before I sleep I texted Liard and ask him “ Kamusta na ang Lolo” I wasn’t able to read his reply because my drowsiness brought me to sleep.
That morning, tatay woke me up, he said “Huy Gising na Maligo ka na my pupuntahan tayo” I just look at him and sleep again. The he speak again and he said “Ang Lolo ay patay na, dadalhin na sa simbahan, maligo na kayo.” I was speechless, then Alyka cried, I still can’t believe what I’m about say then Alyka said “Bakit ang bilis, ang Lolo naman eh” those word had brought me back to reality, reality that my Lolo Jose who loved me so much, who always makes me and my brother feel special is gone. Then Rotsen and Epoy woke up, they are also crying. We all can’t believe it. But even if we don’ want to… we have to.
At the church, the first day of his burial.”Lolo, miss ko na kayo, ang tagal na nating di nagkikita eh, buti pa kayo nakita nyo ako, eh kayo hindi ko nakita” seeing him inside that coffin, opened the sadness that I wish I should have never experienced, all of his Grandchildren especially the small once will be the one that is mostly affected. That day also stands to be a very sad day to us, “Ulila na ako” my mother said. “Inay,wala na ang lolo” Epoy said. “Kingking wala na ang lolo” I heard Mama told me. It hurts me cause even if I know she didn’t mean it, I was hurt, because I was not there for him to take care of him. “Sana nagpaalaga man lang lolo, kasi, ang tagal ko naalagaan ang lola, naiparamdam ko sa kanya pagmamahal ko, pero sa Lolo, bakit hindi?”. Tito jun, Tita Connie, Cocoy and Czyrah came from Mindoro.
His second day of burial is also my Mock board exam, half of my mind misses him, half Is still thinking what is the best answer between a,b,c or d. I don’t know. That same day he was transferred to Gulod, Ninong Nestor’s house. He was brought there because befoe he died he said “ Ako ay doon na titira kina Nestor”. Well, that never happened. Many of the people who went there just said, “Malakas pa yan ah”. I just said inside “Buti pa kayo nakasama nya, bago siya umalis”
Lots of his relatives came, some of his siblings stay there. Anu ga ang nangyayari, totoo nga wala na ang lolo ko.
His Last Day with Us
March 17, 2011-everything seems to empty our thought everything. We just missed him so much. We will miss him. And it’s us hearing “Masaya na ang Ka Jose dahil magkasama ni sila ng Kakang Celing”. I thought that will help us ease the pain we are feeling. But still that does not help.
Lots of problems had come on those day when he still buried until the day of his interment, quarrel between our parents, on the reason I believe can not be a reason. Everything can be settled if they will just try to lower the thing that is to high to all of them, it’s their pride.
I believe that Lolo and Lola will be happier wherever they maybe if their children will be able to have this things, MANAGED.
Things I realized on this lost:
Lessons:
1. Show your love every minute, as long as you can because we do not know what can happen next.
2. Love your parents, brothers and sisters and cousins, aunts and uncles because they are your family, he person you will run to every time you need someone.
3. And the most important lesson: Trust God, have faith in him and love him more.
Word/s I will always remembered my Lolo told me…
1. Kamusta na? (I can still remember his cute smile while asking this question)
2. Sitution the Sirang Bag
a. Lolo : Napapaanu ka naman
b. Kingking : Ay nasira po zipper na bag ko
c. Lolo : Akina aayusin ko
d. Kingking : opo (after few minutes)
e. Lolo : subukan mo nga kung ayos na.
f. Kingking : Ayos na po thank you
g. Lolo : sa sige. Pasok na sa school. May pera ka pa ga?
h. Kingking : Penge po Beinte, hehe
i. Lolo : o, ingat ha. Uuwi ka agad pag kalabas ha.
j. Kingking : opo, Bless po
k. Lolo : oh… (nagbesobeso kami, bagets lolo eh… kabesobeso ko basta magmeet kami)
3. Handle pronounced handul
4. Nakita mo ga ang aking sumbililo
5. O magsalwal kana.(sabi ng lolo kay Giuseppe)
6. At higit sa lahat His Gigils!!!!
(Konti pa toh…)
Situation after his death that really makes me feel the lost:
1.
Giuseppe : Hindi kaya yan ang Lolo na nagbibigay ng panutsa, iba yan eh
Inaylo : Yan yun, babye na ikaw, di ga ay magkasama na ang lolo at lola sa heaven.
2.
Epoy : Lolo, I love you.
Inay : Tatay….
Kingking : Lo…
3.
Kyla, Ariane, Epoy
They cried because among all they are those who experienced our grandpa’s unconditional love.
4.
All of us..
We grieved because we lost our father
5.
Magkakasundo kaming magpipinsan, dahil sa pagpapalaki sa amin ng parents namin… at higit sa lahat dahil sa pag-alalay sa amin ng Lolo at ng Lola.
Goodbye 2010… hello 2011